The garden has been
recuperating—slowly, but it has. New
shoots are sprouting from those roses which, back in July, I decided to prune
aggressively. And what a wonderful thing
doing that proved to be… for I see rebirth and hope in these bushes, while the
others—those I didn’t have the heart to prune so drastically, are still doing
so poorly that I have now decided to cut them too…
It is a scary thing to cut, or prune
your roses so much, but there are times when one must do that; and this is one
of those occasions.
It is always such satisfaction knowing
you made the right decision… the intuitive mind is a sacred gift, I think, and
listening to what our heart is telling us, it is usually the right path to
follow…
Of course, we have to remember that sometimes
that doesn’t work for everyone.The Bible teaches us that the heart is deceitful above all things and beyond
cure.Who can understand it?And maybe there were occasions when, throwing caution to the wind,
you let your emotions take the wheel, and all went well. But it’s likely there are at least as many
times when people’s decision delivered the opposite outcome.
I believe; however, that
if our hearts are attuned with the Divine, and we walk in the right path, then
it is safe to listen to your gut instincts and follow what our heart is telling
us.
God speaks to the believer in real,
amazing ways, and sometimes what we think is just ‘gut feelings’ it is actually
His voice guiding… It is up to us to learn to trust
those inner feelings and learn to listen to God’s voice… until those feelings become
stronger and clearer…
So,
avoid going against your better judgment or getting talked into things that
just don’t feel right—that’s my motto.
Funny how things work out sometimes… and thus, it happened
that we decided to have every window of our two-story house professionally
cleaned for the very first time ever.And what an amazing thing it is to have clean windows, I tell ya—you can
actually see everything outside again!
It was like being outside from inside, or like being out in
the garden from your very own kitchen... and it was as if someone had handed you down
a new pair of eye glasses and… you could see again!
Everything was so clear and everything outside looked so green and marvelous from inside. Then, it rained the following day. Yeah, it rained! Which means our squeaky-clean windows got rained down and wind blew bringing dust, and wind and rain and dust blurred everything out, and specially on the top floors, windows got pretty murky again. So I guess what I’m trying to say is, life is so unpredictable. Everything can be perfect one day... but for such short time!
There are mice in the garden. Dead ones I have seen. Tiny, disgusting dead creatures that had been appearing from time to time in the garden. All dead thanks goodness; for I haven’t seen a live one. I don’t know where they dwell or from where they have been coming, but I just don’t like it. Coming across these dead things while working the soil gives me the creeps and I jump and scream and run away… and I just don’t like it. I need a cat, a cat or two like the feral cats roaming the premises at our little white cottage those years ago.
The other day, I found a cat roaming the gardens—yellow
and white and I’m sure not wild, for although he didn’t come close when I called him, he did seem friendly, or civilized enough, and he strolled the gardens at
his leisure smelling the flowers and taking his time to enjoy his life… oh how I
loved seeing him here…
And then... he jumped on the fence and was gone.I put food for him outside that evening so he
could return, but instead came the ants, and what do you think! Believe it or not, they ate every morsel of food I left out… they were carnivore ants I guess, for I never knew ants could eat meat like that.
Be good to yourself, enjoy your moments and thank God for everything He gifts you!
The super-hot days of our high desert are here—the July and August summer days.
Summer enters your soul through your skin and it sits there wanting for you to worship it.
Nothing feels nor looks anything like with on those lovely days of June. Around here it is just heat and perspiration and a fluttering of the heart. The sun shines so bright, that it almost dims the light that shines from within you…
Grasses have started to turn yellow everywhere you look and sunshine in the morning doesn’t feel like powdered gold over the grassy side of the garden. My little sanctuary doesn’t smell of roses either. The garden hasn’t been graced by an abundant amount of roses after the infestation that took over it, but at least I was able to collect a posy of the loveliest of little roses to bring inside…
These darling roses are from my Boscobel rose bush—a meager of roses I should say, for what this beautiful bush is supposed to give.Needless to say, I am happy for this… and won’t complain.
Neither of the two David Austin roses I brought home the spring of 2019—the Boscobel and Abraham Darby, have put ‘real’ roses yet… and I say ‘real’ because all I have gotten from them are but small, unhealthy representations of what these roses ought to be.What disappointment they’ve been thus far.
I supposed, these roses are still taking their time to adjust to the garden; to adjust to this new place and new soil to them… but whatever reasons there may be for this ‘delay’, they haven’t been given much.Actually, they haven’t given anything. And as of today, this is all I’ve been able to bring in from those bushes.
It’s been said that summertime is a season, and a song.And I wonder if it also a growl?Really! A growl!
We were having breakfast outside in the garden this past Sunday when all of a sudden a most disturbing growl was heard above the gentleness of the morning… ending the beauty and quietness surrounding us.
It wasn’t a dog’s growl, or a bark, or any other sound made by an animal we could identified.In fact, we had never heard anything like it before.It was a frightening, diabolical sound that left us glued onto our sits and kept us very quiet for a while.
The sound had come from the other side of the fence, across from where we were sitting. We listed for some movement, or another sound like it, but nothing.Everything went back to the previous quietness.I walked over to the fence and took a peek onto the other side, to see if there was anyone there, but found nothing.No one was there, no animal no nothing.All quiet, all ‘normal’.
We figured that if the sound had come from an animal, naturally there should had been more of it; like what happens with bullfrogs at the peak of the breeding season, or when a wolf howls to claim territory.If it was someone coughing, there should had been more coughing.But that was not the case.This had been just a sudden, terrifying sound, emitted only once, and that was it.
I remember, how I used to spend my mornings working out in the garden on those days before I started my new job, and how, from time to time, I would hear an odd sound coming from that same house; a shrieking or a sound like a wolf howling, but believing that it had to be the owner of that house spying on me and trying to be funny, or trying to scare me, I didn’t pay much attention to it back then.
Whatever it was this time, however, it was really disturbing, and we still don’t know what it could had been.
The Fisherman sweetly mentioned that, perhaps, it could had been that same ape I spied on the rooftops of our neighborhood two Christmas ago?
So I run inside the house as fast as I could and at sunset time, when the sun was setting in the horizon and the sky was turning to a light, dusky purple, and my soul yearned to go out and wait for the tiny silver stars to appear, I tried to go outside… but I couldn’t.
I worked in the garden or four hours last Sunday—under the
heat of July, a carpet of green grass under my feet majestic, the music of
birds soothing and perfect… and it was fire pressed against my skin and sweat on
my lips… and I remembered that I hadn't filled the birdfeeders in a long, long time,
and I remembered that hummingbirds had been also missing their sugary water and
I must hurry and make some soon…
Because the infestation that had been affecting my roses was
so bad, most of them had to be pruned down almost to the ground. Even if I had sworn to myself not to be
annoyed by this and let it be, I couldn’t stand it any longer. And I closed my eyes and followed my heart,
and I cut… and while I was cutting my thoughts floated onto another tomorrow—onto better days and
splendid blooms, and I kept cutting and perspiring some more while hoping for the best...
I later watered each rose bush deeply and tried to remove as
much of the yellow leaves still left on branches by hose.What else could one had done?The Fisherman insisted that spraying the
roses with insecticide; which he did (he did), had been more than enough, and he
insisted that I acted unwisely and destroyed what took a year to mature and I just
closed my eyes and kept working… under the sun, the marvelous sun of July,
which I will remember it later, and wish I could be out under its heat when
cold days are here, and skies turn bluesish-black and my soul old and cold.
I’ve been freezing watermelons.I use an ice-cream scoop to scoop out the
fruit and then I place the watermelon balls in plastic bags and freeze
them.Watermelons are definitely the epiphany
of ‘summer’ to me.Refreshing like no
other fruit, enticingly beautiful to the eye and sweet to the taste buds and I
am sure I will never get tired of eating frozen watermelon on scorching hot
summer days in the garden, when birds are singing and white fluffy clouds above
your head swim the open blue sky like fishes in the lake.
Watermelon, the sound of sprinklers, flipflops, roses and
mourning doves songs. I love
summer. I love summer! Can you hear emotions in words?
